Thursday, June 10, 2010

The Year of Magical Thinking by Joan Didion

Am reminded again how Joan's experiences in this book are kind of a
"twofer" for two large types of loss she describes so well.

- sudden loss (mom enters coma, Charlotte, etc) - Joan's experience of
husband's death suddenly at home

- also long uncertain scary losses where you are at mercy of docotors
(mom seemingly indefinitely in a coma and no one seems to be able to
remember how long it was)- Joan's daughter getting pneumonia, in coma,
other medical issues ( but apparently now ok at end of book) however
all the medical research Joan did reading her book on Intensive Care
is much appreciated. I wonder if we could have helped differently had
we known more... (there goes my own magical thinking of wanting to
make it better, to control a situation I could not control).

So many things I can not control and I still have trouble just
worrying about the stuff I can control and doing that Like going to bed.

"Life changes fast.
Life changes in the instant.
You sit down to dinner and life as you know it ends.
The question of self-pity"
- Joan Didion from the book.

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